Last time I wrote, I was having a very dramatic and depressing pity party for one. Hence, the name of the blog entry: The Birthday Blues: Pity Party for One, Please. If you are in the mood to listen to me whine about a possibly unpleasant birthday, click the title to read that post. However, my actual birthday was not so bad. In fact, I might even go as far as to say that it was pretty…nice. I really didn’t want to say that. In my last post, I said that I really did not have a turning point or epiphany for my post, but I have it now so, I guess this is the part two to that post.
My morning started off, as usual, I worked out, showered, did my makeup(only eyeshadow since that’s all I had since, the incident from the last post). Then, I decided to have half a slice of my Publix Bakery Carrot Cake; it was delicious but very sugary to start off the morning with. However, I wanted to start off my day a little happier. Speed things up a little bit to when I get off the bus; my bag breaks as I’m walking to physics class but, for some reason, I’m not deterred by this at all. I keep on walking and hold my bag by the bottom. For some reason, I’m just happy. Don’t ask me why. My compact falls and shatters powder everywhere and I’m upset borderline depressed and I haven’t even left home, yet. My bag breaks while I’m on campus and I’m unmoved by it. Maybe God heard my cries and decided to bring me some peace while I was asleep.
This is not where it gets good for me. My TA (Teaching Assistant) for Physics lab did not show up for the first half of class (this is approximately a 3-hour class). Yes! She makes labs oh so stressful. The Head of the Physics Lab Department came in and instructed us. I like him, he’s come to our class before and he explains the labs well. Due to his calming presence, my lab partner and I along with a few others were able to finish our labs early and leave which almost never happens. This was the best birthday present for me because I absolutely dread the Physics lab. Fast forward to after lunch, my family calls me as I’m heading home. It brought the hugest smile to my face. I’m pretty sure I scared a few people as I was walking to the bus stop but, whatever! It was my birthday! All throughout the day, I kept getting Facebook messages and even better texts from people I thought had forgotten about little old me. I enjoyed the texts because I got a new phone (not really, its old but “new” to me) and was unable to sync all my contacts. This meant that I was getting texts from unknown numbers. I made a game out of it by trying to guess who text me by the message and the area code but of course, I didn’t text them back until I got home and was able to match their numbers to the ones on my old phone. I skyped with my mom and my sister, mostly my mom It was nice to see their faces.
I had my organization meeting over Skype, too, and at this meeting is where I had my epiphany. I realized I could still make the most out of my birthday. The president of our organization said I should celebrate on Friday and go to Gator Nights. My birthday didn’t just have to be this one Thursday. I could celebrate on Friday too. I forgot that UF has free activities on Fridays and I didn’t need to restrict myself to just one day or doing nothing because I had no money and my family wasn’t around. My judgment was so clouded by lack of money and the fact that my family wasn’t going to be around me for my birthday that I forgot how to think on my feet. The point of this whole rant is that I realize that only I can make my own happiness and only I can restrict or expand how abundantly I live my life. Now, I’m going to have more cake and watch Korean dramas. South Koreans sure know how to do comedy.
Thanks for listening to my rant,
What are some of your epiphany moments?